When love fades away;

I had made a list of all the things I wanted us to do together. At the end of the list, it was written something like when we did all of these, we will fall in love all over again.
I put it on the fridge door. He saw it. Laughed. He said, " When we do all of it, I will break up with you".

Now we did break-up. The list is absolutely not done. It's on another fridge. In another country.

He did not look at the list when he flipped my photo over because he did not want to see my face. The photo was exactly above the list. On the fridge.

The list is the one behind this big black sticker.

Love,

eL.

Making plans and breaking them;

My friends they know me as a list maker.

Yeah! I make lists. All the time. I have a whole shelf for its equipment. Wonder what?
You know... Markers, stickers, rulers, and lots and lots of colors, papers, etc.

Making lists take time. You should have the right playlist ready. You need to relax before starting to make lists. Meditate. Yoga. Playing with your puppy. Whatever that brings you back to now. Whatever makes you realize the tone of your breath.
Then it will come to your tea. Your coffee. Hahah. It's important. Believe me.

After that, for me it happens like this:

I sit. I look at my tumblr for a bit. It always inspires me.

And I write. I write. I write. I bring out the core of the writing. I start making lists.

It's one of the most fun thing to do for me. It really is.

I put them on the wall. In my journals. In my blog even!

Making list is about organizing your mind. It's about fading away the cloud among your thoughts. And see the whole thing clearly.
I used to be frustrated when I understood that I am not following them. But then I realized making lists is not just about following them and bringing them to act. It's a way to understand who you are. And it's so beautiful.

So never be sad or disappointed for not following your lists. But keep them. They are your journal. They are a better version of you that you know about yourself. They are the things that you know you want to do. The things that you know you can do.

What about you? Do you make lists? What do you make lists for?

Love,
eL. 

My dear June;

June is here.

I’ve decided to write about June.

It might be the last June that I will ever live in Istanbul, so it has to be special.

And it’s the first month of Summer.

There is a long list of items that we have to do. I guess from time to time we get bored of our list and we decide to change the app only. So far we are using Wunderlist, and it’s good.

I think a person does yoga every damn day, spend time with his/her loved ones (including dogs of course), is able to find a time to read a book, watch a movie, walk and think and be independent financially is a happy person. Nah?
This theory defines me as a happy person and I tend to stick with it in my dear June.

Here's the list of things that I want to do in dear June:

1. Do yoga more. I have signed up for Yelina's workshops of course.
2. Focus on my meditation.
3. Keep running. It would be awesome if I can make it 10 minutes everyday.
4. Write more.
5. Visualize more. (check out number 6)
6. Focus more on what I really want.

I am sure this month will be awesome.

Love ya'll!

What I hope to happen in 2015!

Hi,

It’s the second day of 2015.

I am really happy I wrote about my 2014; it seemed like an extra load on my shoulders that I put down. It seemed like having a general overview of what had happened this year. I was able to see the dark parts much better, were they really dark? Or have I  just assumed that it’s the hard parts!?

Anyway, I started my new year at home, beside B and my dear dear dear Maya! Watching TV, talking, relaxing and I did yoga after 2 weeks. For one complete hour. It was a bless.

I had started to write my 2015 resolutions from couple of days ago & today I finished it. Here I will share it, and by each time that one is done, I will cross them from my list.

Wish you all the bests, and love in the world!

Breathe* :)

☮ Start my website

☮ Start my shop in Etsy, little illustrations :)

☮ Try not to think and talk about worthless matters.

☮ Being more strong physically

☮ Buy a blender and start drinking more juice and smoothies.

☮ Wash Maya’s teeth three times a week (Saturday/Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday)

☮ Do yoga each night at least 30 minutes and mindfulness meditation 10 minutes.

☮ Focusing on core strength and balance in asanas.

☮ Run each day 20 minutes

☮ Join the Haliç Marathon

☮ Start swimming from June.

☮ Learn to surf

☮ Visit at least two places (in or out of Turkey)

☮ Be more calm and tranquil

☮ Be more self-confident

☮ Try to wake up with the sun-rise each day.

☮ Improve my English / Get IELTS

☮ Apply for university

☮ Get my tattoo :D (it’s been in my list for two fucking years now. Haha)

☮ Keep going with my 52 week challenge of Jar!

☮ Spend more time loving people that liking their photos on social media.

☮ Read more books. ☮ Buy glasses ☮ Buy a perfect yoga mat

☮ Make my house more homey and more smart in the usage terms.

☮ Visit Cappadocia.

☮ Buy more plants.

☮ Learn more about the moon.

☮ Do some charity work.

*I learned from a friend to write “Breathe” at the end of emails. When you see it, for one second close your eyes, take a deep breath and be grateful for your being.

Autumn Bucket list

Today is the first day of October. And autumn is officially here.

In Istanbul we are having cool breezes all over the place and also experiencing hot sun for 2 or 3 hrs.

I want to make my bucket list for three months of this fall : )

*Start to run for 3 days a week
*Meditate more
*Start yoga in YogaŞala
*Eat more greens
*Clear my working problems with my boss (Hours problems, salary problems)
*Be more grateful
*Long walks with Maya
*Go more to the nature; Rize, Black sea
*Take more photos
*Smile and appreciate each minute of life
*Prepare my closet for cold days

What about you?

Grab a pen and a paper, write down your list and clip it to your journal and share it online! Don’t forget to mention me. Reading your bucket lists are really inspiring! 

October calendar, I downloaded from free people website

Life is better each moment

Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

Making lists. Words. Thoughts. Day dreams.

Mental visions that we are sure will come true only if we can do handstands better in yoga. Only if we can find the dream job and if we can hang out with that handsome guy.

Hmm. All of them can be in this very moment. You can start small. Actually, you “have to” start small. No other way. Promise yourself to be better in each step by the next month. And believe me you can.

To begin, begin.

These days I am inspired by free souls more than anything else.

I am much more fund of wind, and water than before.

Life, love is all around us.

I have started a 12 days of yoga challenge. It has started today. I will be working on my legs more.

What about you? What are your plans for this week?

Love you all. 

kisses. xoxo

eL.

Sunday, coffee, little journal. Silence.