Have a reminder for your 'Happiness Capacity'

There's a hidden joyful epiphany in finding your drafts when writing. The words you used, that you had forgot. The feelings that got faded away in time...

I got that today with finding a very old draft. 

I decided on a 30 day yoga today. I need to make a change. I need to bring light in my life again. 

Xmas dinner in the castle with loved ones

*I should always remember this smile, this night and how happy I can be.

Start over

Well, new year started. With loads of love, kisses and hugs.
Someone died. I cried. A lot.
I feel for my country. I miss my land.

But never have I ever experienced a deeper love that I feel for my family and friends. I feel a warm hand holding my hand, helping me to stand up on my feet.

And walk again. Run again. Be me again!

Right timing;

Love who you love while you have them.
That’s all you can do. Let them go when you must.
If you know how to love, you’ll never run out.

Maya

*Ann Brashares, My Name Is Memory

All Day I Dream

Well... you meet some people by accident one day in a party and bam! one year later they become your sisters, brothers, best friends, family, loved ones. . .

All Day I Dream - August 2017

All Day I Dream - August 2018

Much love, Much war;

"If I have learned anything in this long life of mine, it is this: in love we find out who we want to be; in war we find out who we are."

The quote is from Kristin Hannah. I read it today and felt it with my heart. 

I have so much love and so much war in me. 

Breathe.x

Running through harsh times

Today is a hard day. It's a long day.

I ran 20 minutes (first 20 min! yeyyy!!!) but still my mind is pulling me back.

I'm running through my break-up. And it's not easy. Not at all.

x

When love fades away;

I had made a list of all the things I wanted us to do together. At the end of the list, it was written something like when we did all of these, we will fall in love all over again.
I put it on the fridge door. He saw it. Laughed. He said, " When we do all of it, I will break up with you".

Now we did break-up. The list is absolutely not done. It's on another fridge. In another country.

He did not look at the list when he flipped my photo over because he did not want to see my face. The photo was exactly above the list. On the fridge.

The list is the one behind this big black sticker.

Love,

eL.